lately everything naimonu posts is in perfect alignment with my current experience.
“any time i am looking to somebody else as my source, i’m coming from scarcity. i am no longer trusting God, or the Universe, for my harvest. it’s reasonable for me to have expectations based on what somebody i trust has committed to. and it’s natural for me to feel disappointed when that somebody doesn’t come through. but when i feel more than disappointment, when i also feel anger, it’s because i deviated from my truth. it’s because i compromised my truth to get what somebody else promised. because when i’m really following my truth, i will be at peace with the consequences—whatever they are. i can accept somebody else’s truth, but i must live my own truth. and sometimes that means walking away from a relationship.”
-Jan Denise quoted on page 336 in Moon Phase Astrology by Raven Kaldera
you are enough, dear aquarius. even though the world may be deeply imperfect, even though it may feel as though your work has no impact, even if the weight of being alive at this moment in time is sometimes too great to bear—you are enough. and you deserve a work life that allows you to be well and whole and that has room for your psyche. you deserve a home life that allows you to feel at ease so you can recover and return to the work you are doing in the world.
perhaps more importantly, you deserve to unlearn the patterns, habits, and behaviors that have far too much control in your life. you deserve to reclaim your family line and understand where you come from so you can be more honest about who you are and the place you occupy in the world. you deserve to be a good home for yourself.
you may find that there are those who do not value you as they should. those who you try and try to work on behalf of and who still shun you. what are they trying to teach you? for they may be your greatest teachers. while the urge to rage outward is difficult to resist, i say to you, heart heavy with affection, that the amount of rage and indignation you may feel is likely in direct proportion to the wounds you have not yet grappled with.
this is not a week for the mind, dear one. in fact you may find yourself frustrated if you attempt to use logic, theory, and words to gain the truths you need. the solace you seek is within song, it is within the quietness you are able to create for yourself, and it lives in your body. care for yourself deeply, for no matter who in this universe chooses to deny you, you need never deny yourself the love you need and seek.
through all the shifts and movements, the career and home upheavals, trust that you are beginning to find yourself through it all dear capricorn. trust that you are finding a strength and resilience not easily gathered and not easily lost. as jupiter prepares to bless you with friendship, connection, and community, pause a moment this week to contemplate the kind of people you want to call into your life and the communities you truly want to serve. and choose your people not based on how much they need you, but on your ability to be of service to them while honoring the shifts and expansions you are going through intellectually. perhaps more deeply, can you find folks who can make room for the hidden creativity that is coiled deep within you? people who encourage you to create for the sake of your own pleasure whether it benefits them or not? find folks who remind you to listen to your heart.
be honest if there are relationships that need to shift if you are to move freely, especially if they no longer have room for the kind of life you are trying to create for yourself. while it may be inconvenient, now is the time to bring up the stuff you have been holding on to and the hidden urges and desires you may have been denying. if there is an idea that has been percolating in your head that is bold, brilliant, and perhaps a bit bizarre, stop repressing it. it may not be time to manifest it now, but accept the wilder parts of you, and ensure your community is flexible enough to hold all of you when you are ready to share your fullness.
if the mind grows frazzled or frustrated, sink into your heart and allow it to soothe you. rationality simply is not in the air this week, try not to resist the call to release into your flow.
may this week’s new moon in scorpio inspire you to fierce honesty in your committed relationships, business or otherwise. no matter how seemingly inconvenient, conjure up a place of safety in another, where there is deep sharing and deep truths that exist outside of judgement or manipulations.
may you have the courage to call the bullshit for what it is this week, especially when it leaves you laboring for way less than you are worth. may you look clearly at the arrangements in your life that rely on your goodwill and work ethic but still cannot hold you and see you as the sacred being you are.
you deserve relationships where you are cherished, whether they be professional, sexual, romantic, or within your family. if you are being taken for granted, it may be time to begin honing the boundaries you need to ensure you are not getting the short end of the stick. as you create those boundaries, remember to make room for the shifts you are undergoing on a spiritual level. make sure there is enough room for you to lean into the magic that is pulling at you and for the expansive knowledge that is beginning to make its way into your life. make enough room so you may build a relational life that is a salve for any disillusionment or weariness you may be grappling with.
kindness is wonderful, but not when it shackles you to relationships and labor that do not honor you.